My 2018 was a BITCH! And if I said otherwise I’d be lying. I went through the most. It’s like the older you get, the tougher you should be. This was not the way I had envisioned my year to end. I must admit though, it taught me the best lessons.
Emotionally, I was a wreck. My anxiety literally stopped me from living. I Felt like a zombie. Instead of things getting better I’d actually feel like I’m sinking even deeper. It used to help to talk about these feelings and writing about them. My mind was just not into this whole adulting thing.
My anxiety played a huge role in this. I could have done a lot better if my mind was up for it.
Here’s a why I’m glad 2018 is over…
I couldn’t blog!
Nothing worried me most than knowing how much I love blogging and I just couldn’t think of anything to write about. I’ve written maybe 3 to 4 posts this whole year! That’s one month’s number of blog posts for real bloggers! It didn’t bother me that my followers weren’t growing anymore or if I was losing any of them. Not posting on my blog, however, made me feel sad and somewhat like a failure.
I gained a lot of weight.
I had some belly fat the previous year and it didn’t bother me that much. I ate a lot this year because that’s what I do when I’m stressed. So, hello size 36! I’m working out maybe 2-3 days a week when I manage to get out of bed and move around.
I was dead broke.
I couldn’t get a job, I didn’t even understand why because I was trying my best. I got a few opportunities but my emotions couldn’t handle them. Thank God I learned to crochet and started a business from it
My son got into a car accident.
When this happened I swore I was cursed to suffer! I’m so grateful he is alive and healthy.
This was so much traumatic on me but I had no choice but to be strong for him.
This was probably a really depressing blog post, so I also compiled a list of things I learnt through my ‘blessing in desguise’ year of 2018.😊
See you all next year! 💜💃